Uncertainty

So here we are on the last day of June. How is it possible that the first month of the Summer has already gone by?

AP Scores come out in 6 days, the fourth of July is only 4 days away, and suddenly I'm feeling that awful uncertainty I get at the end of anything.

Whenever I feel a chapter of my life start to close, I always do one of two things. I either a. get incredibly freaked out and spend the majority of my time looking back at those times trying to put myself back there, or I b. totally ignore that past and put myself in the future prematurely. I have such a difficult time living in that moment, and I don't know why. I have always been like that.

So now while I feel like my time as a high school student has ended (it's finally hit me) I'm obsessively looking at the past and wishing to go back. The prospect of college is absolutely terrifying, and to be quite frank, I know I'm not ready to go yet. I so wish I could take a year off on a soul-searching journey; living in other countries and discovering what foot I want to start my adult life on.

But that idea seems so ludicrous; I've lived out the majority of my life on the predestined path that society has given me, and how am I supposed to break off of that now? 

It just seems so uncertain what my future is going to be like, and that is so absolutely terrifying. I just wish I could create my own path.

Hm,

Megan

A Style Challenge

A few days ago, as I was browsing YouTube, I stumbled upon this video by Annika Victoria, and I absolutely loved the idea of it! The nature of her video set it up almost like a tag video, but I decided to take it and make it my own.

I like the idea of reusing pieces in different ways; I managed to get an entire week's worth of outfits with only 7 articles of clothing. I like the fact that it gives the illusion of never being an outfit repeater (oh that was a wave of nostalgia)

Anyway, what do you guys think of these types of videos? I love making them, but they do take A LOT of effort to film & edit! Especially this one!

Talk to you soon,

Meg

My Summer Morning Routine

Hello!

How has the "official" start of your summer been? So far mine has been pretty lovely, minus a few scratches and bruises (But what do you expect?)!

A few days ago I uploaded this video to my YouTube Channel, and I completely forgot to share it with you lovely folks! You can check it out above, and if you like it, don't forget to head over to my channel and subscribe. ;)

Lots of love!

Megan 

Outfit of the Day: Strawberry Fields

Hey guys! How are you doing on this lovely day?

I have been on a roll with my outfit posts recently, after such a long absence of them! I think I just got used to taking a selfie for Instagram--much easier, but much less rewarding.

I guess with the openness of the Summer, I feel less constrained and more creatively open. It has reminded me how much I love photography (in the loose sense, haha, as far as my skills get me) and how much I miss making YouTube videos and updating you guys about my life.

But less about me, and more about my outfit!

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OUTFIT DETAILS

Glasses: "Selfie" from Bonlook

50s Novelty Print Dress: Vintage from Via's Vintage

Bag: Cambridge Satchel Company

Jelly Shoes: American Apparel

Petticoat: Amazon

 I think that the little strawberry print is absolutely perfect for the Summer. It's the first hot day in a while, after quite the strain of rainy and cold days, so it's finally starting to feel like summer. I'm excited for the potential.

Cheers ♥,

Meg

Outfit of the Day: Pistachio Almond & Strawberry

Hey guys! How are you?

Last night I went and saw How to Train Your Dragon 2 with my boyfriend, and I always like to dress a little cutesy when I go to see a film. It's always nice to dress a little nice and feel a little nice!

While in Minneapolis I had a little vintage clothing excursion around Uptown, and I picked up this absolutely amazing sweater. Its pink hue is almost an exact match to cotton candy, and it's perfectly cropped and fitted just below the waist. 

The reason this outfit is titled Pistachio Almond & Strawberry is not just because I'm hungry! In the summers my favorite ice cream combination--of all time--is pistachio almond and strawberry. The two flavors work perfectly together as do the beautiful pastel colors. I guess I'm just starting to emulate my favorite foods.

The skirt, as a surprise, is not actually American Apparel. It's a vintage tennis skirt that I thrifted about a year ago, but you would never be able to tell the difference! I can't even count the number of times I've worn this skirt. It's definitely an essential to my wardrobe. 

OUTFIT DETAILS

Cardigan: Vintage (From my grandma)

Sweater: Vintage, From Via's Vintage (Minneapolis, MN)

Skirt: Thrifted

Purse: Vintage from Etsy

Loafers: Thrifted

Talk to ya soon! ♥

Meg

Outfit of the Day: Swinging Sailor (& I Joined Lookbook!)

Hey guys! 

It's been quite some time since I've done a fashion-related post, but here I am, and incredibly excited to do so. A little under a week ago, I joined the fashion/blogging website lookbook.nu and I have to say that I really enjoy it. You can click the hype button above to go check me out, or click this link!

Aside from that, my style has been evolving into centrally vintage dresses again. (Yay!) I had a brief period of time in which I really did not try all that much with my outfits, but I blame that on the stress from senior year. But now it's summer! Woohoo!

I was at my college orientation these past few days, and I have to say that I've fallen completely in love with Minneapolis. I'm so excited to move there come fall; however, I have a feeling you'll be seeing different sentiment from me come the winter! I like to think that living in northern Illinois has at least prepared me a little... I hope.

The dress is from Tatyana, and I just picked it up yesterday from the Mall of America, and boy can I say that store is absolutely amazing. I felt like I was walking into an authentic store from the 60s.

Who can resist spinning in a dress like this!?!

OUTFIT DETAILS
Dress: Tatyana
Shoes: Urban Outfitters
Backpack: L.L. Bean (Thrifted)

My Dad

My Granny and Grandad!

My grandad managed to get a squirrel to eat directly from his hands, and I got some adorable pictures of it. I mean, just LOOK at its little tongue. Apparently it loves chocolate. I guess we have something in common there.

Talk to you soon!

Megan

xx

High Expectations, Growing Up, and the Future

DISCLAIMER: I am typing this on my iPad, and I cordially apologize for the typos and awkward prose. 

Life. 

Expectations. 

Failure. 

Sometimes, I just don't know. But I guess that's true of everyone seventeen-going on-eighteen experiencing the last high school summer before college. 

I have been absolutely terrible at keeping up with this blog and YouTube channel, and in all of the time I've spent contemplating it, I feel as though I could have done that much more with it. I have been wondering recently WHY I am having such issues with posting videos and photos and ideas, and I feel as though I have come to a somewhat coherent answer. 

I am afraid of failure,

and I am afraid of coming short of my expectations. 

I started this blog a year ago, and I have done barely anything with it. In that time, I have seen people go from nothing to exploding with creative vigor and originality. Put yet, here I am, barely forcing myself past the first step. For a while I hated myself for this lack of ACTION and PRODUCTIVITY, but then I started questioning the foundation for the idea of productivity in itself. 

Why do I consider lying on the couch, typing some pretentious idea that no one is going to read on my iPad  as productive, but yet looking out the window and thinking the exact same thoughts as doing nothing? Is my definition of productivity only valid if it is shared with the rest if the world?

But if I have the will and the means to be "productive" and put myself out there, what us stopping me?

Failure. 

Expectations. 

Life. 

I have always had this deep, onset fear of failing to meet my expectations, yet I always set such high expectations. It makes no sense. Why would I set myself up for the thing that I so feared? 

I think that I do this, as many of us do, because I didn't know anywhere else to start. I had these huge dreams and goals, yet the onslaught of failure always prevented me from actually put myself out there in attempts to succeed. A combination of low self-esteem and high expeditions led the pendulum of my ideas, and I was the weight, swinging eternally back and forth between the two. 

I don't know how realistic it is to attempt to escape pendulum, but if I know a thing or two about physics, is that a pendulum always reached equilibrium between the two maximums. If I can figure out a way to recognize this equilibrium in my life, maybe I have a chance to be successful in meeting my expectation. 

Meet you in the middle,

Megan