Sunday, March 8, 2015

Thoughts in Diffraction

I always struggle with introductions; for the longest time, I've always projected myself based on the expectations of the person(s) I'm introducing myself to. I have a difficult time writing because an inner dialogue feels implausible; without the another entity to form myself around, I lack the ability to find the correct words to say. Even though blog posts are directed at an audience, it really is an outlet of self-expression, which is difficult to do without a direct perceiver.

A lot of the culture that surrounds youth is focused on a sense of self, and finding that inner being should emanate that self beyond the constructed layers of conformity and security.

While I like the idea of using this as a means to search for yourself, I don't like the idea that it sets us up to believe that one day we have the ability to wholly reveal it and be completely fulfilled. Life experiences will always change us, and no possible method exists to counteract that. We are a summation of more than simply us. We are a summation of our past experiences, connections, love, and lost love, etc. 

I've been thinking about devotion recently. I've spent the majority of my life devoting myself to outward entities; obsessions with books and interests, boys, friends, social acceptance. Rarely do you see someone with a devotion to herself. What would change if I was devoted to myself?

Diffraction is this crazy interesting concept in physics in which is powerhouse phenomenon called light diffracts--or slightly alters its path--around any perceived obstructions. Electromagnetic radiation (aka light) is insane to think about because it's what keeps everything together. Light is energy, and we are completely dependent on it for every single aspect in our lives. And even as it's traveling at 9.8 m/s^2 as this amazing necessity, it still alters itself when dealing with a problem. Somehow this is incredibly comforting to me: knowing that even the most powerful entities cannot break through all barriers unscathed.

With love

Friday, March 6, 2015

Dorm Tour

How is everyone today?
This morning I woke up around 8 AM, filmed a YouTube video, cleaned my dorm, edited it, uploaded it, and now I'm blogging. Would you look at how productive I've been (I'm mostly procrastinating my impending homework)

I love Fridays (not only because I don't have classes), but because it's the one day of the week I always like to take for myself, and do things that make me happy. Sharing with you all makes me happy!

As well as filming I video, I took a few photographs of my dorm as well. I'm hoping to get more into photography again, as I'd like to document my experiences as much as possible, and I've been lacking on that end. 

I'm so happy to finally have my room together & to be living in such a nice space. I was so lucky in that my roommate moved out last semester, and I haven't been assigned a new one, so I have been able to move all of my belongings into the whole room, leaving me with such a large space. 

My friend Katie made this adorable banner for me way back in September, and it makes me smile every time I see it. Sugartown is my favorite song by my queen (aka Nancy Sinatra).

I'm almost sad to think that my time living in the dorm is almost over. As much as I can't wait to move into my own apartment, I'm incredibly attached to this everyday life. It's so easy, and living in my own apartment is going to be unlike anything I've ever experienced.

Then again, I had never experienced anything like college before, and I fell in love immediately.

Always looking ahead with optimistic eyes.


Monday, March 2, 2015

Style Steal: Stevie Nicks

Who's more amazing than Stevie Nicks? She's a tough act to follow. Her voice, her style, her performance... everything about her is beyond phenomenal. Easily one of the biggest it girls of the 70s, she holds a high place in my list of biggest inspirations (right behind Anna Karina and Debbie Harry). 

Tall boots, twirly shawls, black lace, silky ruffles, and feathered hair. 

Stevie Nicks has often been called the "Reigning Queen of Rock 'n' Roll" for obvious reasons, and her music & style have been an inspiration to so many. Just a quick google search for "stevie nicks style inspiration" will yield thousands of results.

In order to make this a true Style Steal, I created several outfits on my polyvore account inspired by her! You can catch these below:

Stevie Nicks #1

Stevie Nicks #2

Stevie Nicks #3

Hope you're having a great start to March; if you can't tell by those outfit collages, I'm crossing my fingers for spring! x